To Decide.

One of William Shakespeare's quotes that echo in my mind has always been
"to be, or not to be" which was in Hamlet.

At 23 years old, I think my question isn't to be or not to be - but "to decide, or not to decide".

I am a firm believer of "failing to plan is planning to fail" but really, at this point, I know for a fact that there are no hard and fast rules on life. The only things that are certain in this world to me is 1) God and 2) the world changing.

I haven't blogged for a long time because I began to believe that what I want to say is not worth saying if no one is reading it. I'm wrong. What I want to say is worth saying even if I'm the only reader. Maybe, the most important audience I really need is 1) God and 2) myself.

I am at a fork road again - a turning point that I should have been at so long ago I feel ashamed that I'm there now. I feel like I've lost too much time - but that's only when I discount the experiences that have led me to be someone so much closer to who I want to be than who I was at the beginning of this 5 1/2 year journey. These trials didn't turn me into a straight-A student, unfortunately, but it turned me to someone I can say I am satisfied to be - at least for today.

I want to be so much more than who I am right at this moment.

I feel that Shakespeare's line, "to be, or not to be" is hard to answer.
I know for a fact that "maybe" is not an answer.